Ok I put up with alot from my b/f. He, out of nowhere will just become this red Hulk figure, and hates me from time to time. He just becomes this utter asshole. Won't talk to me or be near me. He argues over money all the time. I can't take it anymore!
I've been thinking about it for awhile now, and I want to move home for awhile. I want to go away for awhile and see if it changes things. I plan on moving back for like six months, or less. This all depends on my quickness to get my life together while at home. I plan on taking my father's truck as mine, and getting a second job out in Plainville (that is where my parents live). I plan on saving money. I hope by me doing all this that my b/f realizes a few things. One, I hope he realizes that he treats me more like roomate than a girlfriend. Two, I hope he realizes that he's letting money crush our love. Three, I hope he misses me. I won't be around all the time. I may come out here time to time and see him and everyone...maybe on my weekends.
I can only hope this helps. I love him dearly and I can't stand how I live, dealing with his every wim or attitude. I mean, should I?Should I move back home for awhile and see how it goes? Should I deal with it all? What should I do?
.
I really didn't want to think about this today. I wanted this to be a good day. I graduate from culinary school later today. I wanted to be happy and not have my daily gloomy cloud wrestling with my mind. I didn't want to wrestle with my pain of what is going on right now.
***I'm losing my heart agian. It's being broken agian. Tears stream down my face daily. Pain rises harshly, like heartburn. My hearts pieces are falling away faster these days. I love you.***