One Year and Half...questions arise
Ok so to start all of you off, I met Kevin (Mr. Big Head) in culinary school. We both attended Connecticut Culinary Institute. Three months prior I had been dumped for the first time by my younger ex. I hung out with Kevin a few times and it seemed we were getting close. I was a bit wardful of this. I didn't at all want another relationship this soon. But as time progressed Kevin wanted to date me. It took alot of convincing on his part but I gave in. Everything was great in the beginning, he was so sweet and sensitive. But of course as time went on we got used to eachother and things came up from time to time. He had this point in our relationship when he just hated me for no real reason at all. This happened for a period of say three months. I fought for my right to stay, and in the end I won. Now we have an apartment and everything is shared. We always were serious , right from the very beginning. Also questions arise in my mind from time to time. I often woder if I'm happy, and where I am , what I'm doin wtih my life right now. Is this all right? Like for example, Kevin won't marry me, ever. A large part of me, I guess the inner little girl, has always dreamed of getting married. The other half of me is saying " you're happy why do you even care about marriage if you're truly happy?" I don't know what to do at this point. I mean should I stay and be happy without marriage for the rest of my life wtth Kevin or do I let myself go and find another who will marry me? There are so many guys I could date right now. I don't know I'm gonna leave this one open ended and hopefully get some great insight from those who read this!